tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53718993260586456222024-03-08T13:42:18.187+08:00Where I Go To Rant Sensibly Anything I happen to have a thought about. Nothing is exempt. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-18701579962566018992014-09-14T17:35:00.001+08:002014-09-14T17:39:36.671+08:00Uncertainty CapturedYesterday was a viewing of "Ang Nawawala" and "Sana Dati" in Teatrino, Greenhills. Seeing the first film after 2 years was rewarding. <a href="http://thelukanmd.blogspot.com/2012/11/cigarette-smoke.html">I've written a piece inspired by "Ang Nawawala</a>" Warning, do not watch both films at the same time unless you want to feel some intense emotions.<br />
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And this piece would be about the other gem of the night: "Sana Dati". Honestly, I just went to Greenhills to re-watch "Ang Nawawala" and buying the ticket for "Sana Dati" was just an afterthought. Might as well indulge, I said to myself. Little did I know, it was a very good film.<br />
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Unlike "Ang Nawawala", the film's strength lies in its very crisp storytelling scenes. It doesn't regale you with songs and complex narratives of a past tragedy. It's a simple story. A woman who's about to get married but then there's a mysterious wedding videographer who has some ulterior motive in going to her wedding. Sounds simple right? Intersperse that with scenes from Alaminos, Pangasinan and solid acting skills shown by all performers and you're drawn in.<br />
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"Doubt is not a pleasant condition but certainty is absurd" from Voltaire and the starting epigraph of "Sana Dati"</div>
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How many times have we fallen in love (well, in my case, just once) and we've told ourselves that at this moment in time and space we're certain. But in hindsight, it's not true. Whether because of our own emotions, events or Time itself; there will always be uncertainty. There is no such thing as "I will always love you".<br />
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Lest you think I'm a cynic, when I speak of Love in this case, I'm pertaining to the rush of emotions at the sudden onset of a new love interest. Those feelings of puppy love and willingness to offer oneself to a lover; these are things that will not last. And that's the quandary of real Love: that it is not certain.<br />
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Real love is marred by compromises, by flaws and by circumstances. It is rarely fair. For instance, is it fair that the true love of the bride dies suddenly with no explanation? Fate is fickle, even in matters of love. So in an act of impulsiveness the bride settles for a man she clearly does not love and this man is aware of this fact but again, because of his love for her, he's willing to overlook this. Some may say the man is stupid but love is rarely smart.<br />
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And perhaps that's what enthralling about falling in love: the uncertainty. And a wedding certainly isn't going to make it certain. As the movie ends, with the bride and the groom already married, the bride finally says "I love you" to the groom. However, notice how she gazes along the road while the groom is driving. Yes, she has visited her true love's grave and placed all mementos on his grave-marker. She even left those blue shoes she swore she was going to wear at their wedding. But then, are we really sure her "I love you" to the groom was sincere?<br />
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So "I love you" becomes nothing more than a scream against an uncertain future. Who's to say the bride isn't going to cheat?<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-80130717999548751942014-05-07T07:55:00.000+08:002014-05-07T16:15:41.792+08:00To First Loves <div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>"As long as you have love you still have hope"</i> <i>- from "Love of Siam" by</i><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 17px;"><i>Chookiat Sakveerakul</i></span></span></div>
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I've put my heart out on a metaphorical plate a few times in my relatively short life and all times, I've been rejected. Does it hurt? Of course. But the more important question: do I regret it? Surprisingly, no. Well, the immature me would have regretted it and put up more defense mechanisms. However, in this moment in time, writing this while sitting in a coffee shop, I can now really say: NO.<br />
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After all, love is intrinsically tied to hope. Hope for a better future, better self and better possibilities. But, we really aren't sure what these outcomes are. We can only put ourselves out there and embrace whatever. As one of my former college professors/masters put it, "real hope isn't tied on a tangible outcome". <br />
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We love and we hope. That's all anyone can do. Unless someone can invent a device that can see the future but of course that'll open up many more paradoxes. So better the uncertainty of hoping.<br />
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<i>"You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices." - from "Fault in Our Stars" by John Green</i><br />
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To "Red Dress": I haven't thought about you for awhile. Heck, the only reason you've resurfaced in my mind is that my college batchmates brought you up during our 50th Alumni Homecoming. I laugh at my naivete then. But now, I'd like to thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have matured. I wouldn't have the current drive I have now.<br />
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It's easy to call you "the Bitch Who Made Me Cry On A Sidewalk" but now, with enough Time, I can look back at it as a necessary path to growth and maturity. And I can honestly laugh at the entire thing. Without you, I wouldn't have one of the reasons to keep exercising and pushing myself beyond my limits.<br />
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To "The Dilimanite": what can I say? You were the one who I showed the real me. I haven't done such a thing in a long time. I've put up these barriers in the fear of getting hurt but you're the one who made me tear them down. In that short time period we shared, October 2012- November 2012, I felt like a kid again.<br />
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The first time we met has even some tinge of literary genius in it. Imagine me, sitting down on the floor, ignoring other people, reading the class transcriptions because I was so busy studying for Biochemistry then you walked in the room. When I looked upon you, I felt something. Literally, the room stopped and all I could see was you. I was compelled to win your heart there and then at that moment.<br />
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Then, you graciously rejected me but not without coming to my room and talking to me. You propped me up during that November 1. It was the nicest thing anyone has done for me in a long time.<br />
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And approximately a year after, in a coffee shop, while studying Cardiac Pathology, I cried. Apparently, there is such a thing as a Type IV hypersensitivity reaction of the Heart. That's how much you affected my life. </div>
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<i>"I’m going now. I’m sorry I couldn’t be here for your battle; I was fighting my own. But we won, right? I can feel it. There’s a shiver in our legs, a tremor like the Earth speeding up, spinning off into uncharted orbits. Scary, isn’t it? But what wonderful thing didn’t start out scary? I don’t know what the next page is for you, but whatever it is for me I swear I’m not going to fuck it up. I’m not going to yawn off in the middle of a sentence and hide it in a drawer. Not this time. Peel off these dusty wool blankets of apathy and antipathy and cynical desiccation. I want life in all its stupid sticky rawness" - from "Warm Bodies"(book) by Isaac Marion</i></div>
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To the future: of course, I don't know what you'll be. I don't even know if there'll even be a "Who". But that's the beauty of it. The uncertainty of Loving and Hoping is now tied to the rawness of Life itself. We can easily wall ourselves from pain but that essentially walls us off from Life. So I live on, I bleed, I write, I read and I move. What I won't do is become an apathetic Being, afraid of pain and action. While it's tempting to be stuck in a drawer; it simply won't do for a Living, Human Being like myself. <i> </i><br />
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A simple toast to uncertainty that thing which makes all things exquisitely beautiful. </div>
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<i>“On the one hand, getting shot in the chest hurt, like a
lot. But on the other, it felt good to bleed, to feel pain, to feel love.” from "Warm Bodies" (movie) by Jonathan Levine</i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-24689350333703029752014-04-06T18:55:00.003+08:002014-04-06T18:55:35.996+08:00The Path of Medicine and AtheismOne of the risks of entering Medicine, especially for a theistic student, is that one will lose his/her religion. And so far, the subjects have further cemented my rational reasons against the existence of a benevolent and omnipotent deity.<br /><br />Last year, the subjects of Anatomy, Physiology and Biochemistry have utterly destroyed my views of a benevolent creator by revealing the imperfections inherent in our bodies. From Anatomy, we see vestigial muscles and structures present in the human body that points to a faulty design. From the route of the recurrent laryngeal nerve to the senseless decussations/crossing-overs of nerve tracts. To Physiology wherein the human body is not a superb work of art after all. And finally, Biochemistry with its study of genetics. And not to mention that every disease has a biochemical basis<br /><br />And for this year's subjects, it has only served to give more rational basis against the existence of a benevolent and omnipotent deity.<br /><br />Pathology, the study of diseases, while fun has given me more reasons to argue against the existence of a deity. It would surprise the reader that some disease process are due to an exaggerated response of the immune system. In the Philippine setting, it's no other than <i>Mycobacterium tuberculosis, </i>the causative agent for tuberculosis. The bacterium itself does not attack the human body, it's the formation of granulomas that make up the pathogenesis of tuberculosis, in the lungs or elsewhere in the human body. And another bacterium that shares the same pathology would be <i>Treponema pallidum</i>, the causative agent of syphilis. However, instead of granuloma formation, syphilis is characterized by gummas.<br /><br />And we move on to Microbiology-Parasitology, the study of organisms that can harm humans. You see how bacteria cause infection and what are the necessary factors to help establish infection. Another tidbit of information applicable to the Philippine setting would be the reason for dengue hemorrhagic fever. It's not the virus per se but the response of the body to the virus. The immune system releases chemicals that causes platelets to leak out of the circulatory system decreasing the patient's platelet count. Thus, we see another supposed benevolent bodily response that backfires and causes a very dangerous complication. <br /><br />And then, moving on to the clinical subjects. <br /><br />Medicine, with its study of the common pathologic conditions found in adults like hypertension, cough, thyroid problems and heart attack, to Neurology and its study of stroke and seizures gives one a chance to apply what has been learned in Pathology and also gives this very important insight: some of the common conditions are actually preventable. It's because of peoples' adoption of unhealthy habits that makes them more prone to develop say hypertension and diabetes. <br /><br />Surgery and its sub-specialty of Orthopedics gives insight on how fragile the bones are contrary to common belief. And the many factors needed for proper bone healing. Unfortunately, we are not yet at the point in which bones can be regenerated instantaneously. It needs a period and support for proper healing or else the fractures may not re-unite.<br /><br />Pediatrics and Obstetrics makes one realize how hard raising children is and also pregnancy. Contrary to what is being preached by say, the CBCP, the making and raising of children is not easy. Well, if we're talking about copulation then its very easy and pleasurable. But if we're talking about the process of development in the woman's uterus then it's another thing. And then, raising children is no easy matter. You have to give them immunizations and proper nourishment. Funny, I don't see the CBCP with its millions sponsoring the many women and children they so love. <br /><br />Finally, Psychiatry gives insight to the human condition via the study of human behaviors. It is very vague, yes, but it gives additional knowledge about how humans defend their egos and also some destructive responses to common stressors like say losing a loved one or being confined in a hospital for a very long time. And if there's any destructive response to be spotted early in a patient it would be suicidal ideation. <br /><br />At this point, it would be easy to either conclude all medical practitioners will become unbelievers or warn parents against sending their children to a medical school. But that's not really the observable reality in the Philippine setting at least so rest assured, dear reader or parent. This is just me outlining what I've learned and using these facts to bolster my unbelief. If there's one thing I want a potential reader to pick up from this: it's really up to you. Yes, it's a personal choice, not an imposition. Nothing more, nothing less. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-58551859224993108482014-03-28T21:11:00.000+08:002014-05-06T14:16:09.646+08:00Moments of Craziness <div class="MsoNormal">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">Or
moments of irrationality if you prefer the more formal term. Anyway, I believe
everyone has them and contrary to belief; I actually have moments like this.
Foremost would be the decision to enter medical school. So far the greatest irrational decision I've ever made. Still waiting for the results of the promotion boards and well,
still seeing what would be the results 10-20 years down the line. And the other
moments, well again, you would be shocked. </span><br />
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1. Got crazy-drunk in the middle of a public field
in school during high school. (I didn't get caught officially). <br />
2. Pined for someone with the song,
"Officially Missing You" by Tamia for 1 whole year *insert snicker
here*.<br />
3. Wrote<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><a href="http://thelukanmd.blogspot.com/2012/11/facebook-post.html"><span style="line-height: 115%;">this</span></a><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">on my Facebook wall. </span><br />
4. And 1 year later, after getting friend-zoned by
the person in no. 3; cried in a coffee shop. It didn't help that "A
Thousand Years" by Cristina Perri was being played on repeat. Not to
mention, was studying Cardiac Pathology.<br />
5. Wrote and staged my own monologue with a
partner. Oh and said partner was the same person in Nos. 3 and 4. (Shhh no one
but friends from that event knows about this one).<br />
6. Drank many vodka-laced shots and smoked an entire pack in a party staged
during the night. It was a school night but the finale was making out with
someone. (Hey, at least it wasn’t on-stage where every people can see; oops a
different event and time). <br />
7. Finally, cried my entire being on the side of a
sidewalk at approximately 2:00 am in the morning.<br />
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No. 7 was during the last year of college. I was
getting crazy enough to go to parties. And, to put it simply, I was dumped. But
we're getting ahead of ourselves.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="apple-converted-space">Semi-last year of college and I was walking
along the SEC-B foyer when I saw a poster of a certain someone. A person
sliding alongside a motorcycle or it seems to be because of the photograph. It
didn't help that "Sexy Bitch" by David Guetta feat. Akon was playing.
I was drawn to the figure wearing a red dress and sliding on top of a red
motorcycle. Maybe it was the pose or the expression but it seemed to me, the
person was sliding or maybe melding with the red motorcycle. Red happens to be
my favorite color; something about red representing bravery, audacity and
passion. It got to me.<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><br />
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Funnily enough, it was a "human auction"
or an event to bid the highest to win a date with said person. Whoever was the
brainchild of that smoldering poster is an effective marketer. It was effective
on me! I bid the highest on "Red Dress" and had the audacity to use
my YM id (Facebook wasn't "in" during those times or maybe I was
ignorant). My rationale during that time was that if "Red Dress"
didn't like me then I could be messaged and I'd abandon my bid.<br />
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Classmates cheered me and "Red Dress"
didn't message me. So I was feeling jittery and thinking this could be the
start of something.<br />
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During the Bionight which was the event wherein
the winning bid would be announced, I was so excited. I even wore something
nice, shaved and gelled my hair. Things I would only do on very rare and special
occasions then. However, an unexpected twist happened. Someone bid against me.
Doing the very crazy thing, I bid more and even borrowed money from my friends.<br />
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Unfortunately, he had more money. I kicked myself
then for spending my spare money on online games. And the knife-thrust to the
gut and the arrow straight to the heart happened: it was Red Dress's boyfriend
who bid against me. My illusions were shattered. Imagine an atom
suddenly imploding inside and, all at once, exploding. It was a sudden release
of all the tensed energy and for one night, I embraced craziness. I drank all
the available alcohol and smoked all the available cigarettes. <br />
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“So why’d you bid for Red Dress?” asked someone as he was driving me and my
friend home. I just smiled and brushed it off but inside I was slowly imploding
and embracing that rush of melancholy like a long-lost friend. <br />
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And we finally get to number 7. While walking to the town house, my college
residence then, I broke down on the side of the road. Cried. I let the tears explode.
Suddenly, I was reminded of how insignificant I was. How deluded I was that a
human person would actually fall for someone who was ugly, a bit on the thin
side, someone wearing glasses and having a brownish complexion. At least I wasn’t
making noise and waking anyone up with my inconsequential breakdown. <br />
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And 3 years after no. 7, I’m reminded of a comment a groupmate/friend made
about my behaviour. “People actually find you weird and creepy”. Yeah, I know.
It was all an elaborate defence mechanism to make me an unattractive person.
And it worked. If my classmates are reading this, well here is a psychoanalytic
explanation for my crass behaviour falling under Axis 4 of the DSM IV TR
guidelines. Damn you Psychiatry! <br />
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Yes, the fact that I’m writing this online instead of saying it in person is
pathetic but hey, I’m getting somewhere. The mere fact I’m writing about it and
posting it on a platform wherein anyone can see it is progress enough. Or who
knows, this will stay buried here. Maybe it’s all for the best. Maybe this will
serve as a notch, as a mark, that I’ve moved on. <br />
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If anything at least I have a very strong reason, among many, to have a
work-out routine even during the rigors of medical school. </span></span><o:p></o:p></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-3887749837377884272014-03-06T19:25:00.000+08:002014-03-06T19:28:20.079+08:00Brain or HeartIt's a given that physicians are smart. However if given a choice what should be the number one trait that a physician must have. Should a physician be so intelligent and wise hence have a well-developed brain? Or should a physician have the drive, the passion and the empathy for patients hence have a big heart?<br />
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Well according to Neuroscience, we live and feel with our brains. Our feelings and emotions are found in the limbic system of the brain. Our hypothalamus releases chemicals that influences the rest of the limbic system. For instance, you have an exam and you need to get a very high grade. The limbic system gives the necessary drive for you to study all-night. In addition, the hypothalamus releases a signal to the pituitary gland. The pituitary gland, in turn, releases a chemical signal to your adrenal cortex. The endpoint of which is a release of cortisol. Cortisol now gives you the energy to study all-night albeit for a short while.<br />
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So really, the graphic representation of our feelings into a heart is a mistake. The better representation would be our brains with all its gyri and sulci. But it is not completely wrong to represent our feelings and emotions with a heart. The brain influences the heart rate through the autonomic nervous system. The heart makes manifest what we feel in our brains. That increased heart rate and sweaty palms when your crush passes by that's your autonomic nervous system making its effects on the body. However, I highly doubt that people will shift to representing emotions with a brain.<br />
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At this point, it was all a long-winded explanation to get to the point that the brain and heart are interconnected. In terms of what should a physician have, it's not far off from the truth. A physician must have both Brain and Heart. One cannot become a physician if one aspect is deficient or not in synergy.<br />
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Because a physician with only a Brain will only see the patient in terms of his/her organ systems. If said patient is suffering from a cancer then that doctor will only see the cancer and how it is disrupting the organ systems of the patient. The brainy physician will ignore the signs of distress evident on the patient's face. How his/her family members are holding back tears. And if said patient is a parent, how his/her child is suffering in school. The patient becomes <i>Homo sapiens </i>but not anymore a human being.<br />
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Conversely a physician with only a Heart will see the patient as a human being but will ignore the disruption in the organ system brought about by the cancer. The physician will then forget about making differential diagnoses and cry with the patient. The hearty physician will not know which drugs to prescribe or when to refer to a surgeon. Or if the physician is a surgeon, he/she may not be able to perform surgery on the patient. So in this situation, the patient is a human being but the physician is helpless. <br />
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The Brain now refers to the physician's arsenal against disease and disability. The Brain supplies the medical knowledge and pharmacology of drugs. The Brain is a reservoir of many specialties enabling the physician to make a scientific and economical choice for treatment. And if the disease is beyond the physician, the Brain enables the physician to know when to refer to another physician. The Heart is the physician's drive and motivation. It is his/her humanity. The Heart enables the physician to remain motivated to keep updated with the latest medical advances. Medicine, after all, is an ever-changing Science. The Heart keeps the physician grounded with his/her patients. The Heart motivates the physician to serve his/her patients because service to others is the ultimate manifestation of the Heart.<br />
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So Brain or Heart? The answer is Brain and Heart, in synergy, together.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-82240968504392638832014-03-04T00:41:00.000+08:002014-03-05T02:13:26.721+08:00A Soon-To-Be Tax Evader and Burden<div style="text-align: center;">
<img alt="Photo: THIS IS THE MOST INSULTING ADVERTISEMENT I'VE EVER SEEN!!!!! TALAGANG DOCTORS YUNG BURDEN?????? SHAME ON YOU!!! ANG DAMI NIYONG PWEDENG ILAGAY NA PABIGAT SA LIPUNAN, PERO DOCTOR TALAGA NILAGAY NIYO??? WHY NOT PUT JANET NAPOLES??? YUN TALAGANG PROVEN NA PABIGAT AT MABIGAT!!!!" src="https://fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-frc1/t1/s552x414/1976924_10152291245488352_67168662_n.jpg" /><br />
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I should be studying for Microbiology-Parasitology but every time I finish a class transcription this<br />
BIR ad comes to mind.<br />
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A soon-to-be tax evader and burden. I let that sink in. Now before anything else, I'm not denying that some doctors do not pay their taxes. However, in this ad, it clearly states DOCTOR. So all doctors are tax evaders and burdens? What about those who chose to go to the barrios, to those who chose to go to the under-served provinces of this country and to those who work in government hospitals? And on a personal level, how about my personal reasons for going into Medicine. I certainly didn't do it for<br />
the hypothetical income found in this ad which amounts to approximately P1,000,000.00 and the paltry tax.<br />
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I went into the noble profession of Medicine to serve and to learn. But according to the BIR, I'm a soon-to-be tax evader and burden. I let that sink in again. </div>
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<span style="text-align: center;">And I had to read the comments in this Rappler Facebook </span><a href="https://www.facebook.com/rapplerdotcom/posts/10202656525870576" style="text-align: center;">thread</a><span style="text-align: center;">. </span></div>
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It's full of the entitled Filipino mentality and ignorance. "Bakit ang PF ang taas! (Why is the professional fee high!") says one commentor. "The truth hurts eh doctors," says another. On and on again, the same entitlement, negativity and selfishness permeates this thread. It was as if all the life-saving functions of doctors are forgotten. The sins of a few doctors becomes the sins of all. Now, I am numb and speechless.<br />
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These are the people who I decided to serve upon having a revelation at the Rizal Library! This will be what my future Filipino patients will say to me and what hurts is that they'll say it behind my back. They'll generalize that my lifestyle is funded by my very high professional fees; never mind if I chose to do a medical mission or get involved in a community. Never mind if I do pro bono work. <br />
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The idea of a doctor charging a moderate professional fee is sacrilege. All things should be free. Never mind if the doctor has expenses and wants. </div>
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I now have a sudden urge of re-thinking my original consideration in taking the USMLE and then getting an ECFMG certification which will then allow me to practice Medicine abroad. Any place far away from the BIR and these entitled Filipinos who might I add will have the audacity to ask for a discount from their doctors. How these Filipinos can face their doctors after deriding them online is beyond me.<br />
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Maybe it was a mistake in being adamant about staying in the Philippines to serve my fellow Filipinos.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-54921117205733557982014-02-21T00:44:00.000+08:002014-02-21T00:44:07.988+08:00On Touching a Woman's BreastBefore anything else, this was because of an academic requirement for a subject that encompasses 4 specialties. It was a breast examination for Clinical Evaluation. Essentially, for our 2nd year, we have a synthesis subject that has doctor-professors from four specialties: Pediatrics, Medicine, Neurology and Surgery. One requirement is a graded 2-on-1 patient encounter. You have a partner but you are graded individually. So you can divide the history-taking and physical examination. However, the discussion and the clinical impression is done individually. Also, the patient rapport and professionalism are noted.<br /><br />Anyway, a day prior to the encounter, my mind froze because studying for 4 specialties is really too much. You will only know minutes before the said encounter what specialty you'll be under in. So in essence, if you didn't study well enough months before for Pediatrics, Neurology, Medicine and Surgery; you are screwed.<br /><br />Personally, my least favorite specialty is Neurology. Not only because of its difficulty, during the 1st semester half of our class failed one block exam of Neurology I, but because of the sheer technicality of doing a neurological examination. This in addition to doing the routine physical examination that falls under Medicine.<br /><br />On that day, I was hoping to at least fall under Pediatrics or Medicine. I got Pediatrics for the non-graded 2-on-1 encounter and I wouldn't mind repeating that. Well, sure doing a physical examination on a squealing, non-cooperative toddler is challenging but I'd take a chance on that rather than doing an intricate neurological examination. I'd even hope for Medicine, which I loathe, because of its encompassing nature. Medicine or Internal Medicine is basically the jack-of-all trades in the medical profession. Browsing through their textbook which is "Harrison's Principles of Internal Medicine" tells you a lot about their specialty. Oh, it consists of two volumes. So it is the only specialty that has 2 big books as its main reference material; all the other specialty has only one. <br /><br />Imagine my surprise when I landed in Surgery. In the out-patient setting, surgical patients are those who have a)masses, b)blockages in the gastro-intestinal system (so think gallstones, diverticula and the like), c)hernias and d)hemorrhoids. In essence, structural problems that cannot be corrected by medication or lifestyle modification; these have to be taken out by a surgeon. So you asses whether these patients are eligible for surgery and of course, if they have any other medical condition. Having diabetes mellitus, for instance, instantly qualifies said patient as a risky patient because diabetes mellitus affects every part of the body. It slows down healing, affects the cardiovascular status of a patient and increases the chances of complications post-operation but I digress.<br /><br />So, no we weren't required to do a surgical operation. We just had to interview the patient and physically examine her. My partner and I had a prior agreement. If the patient is male and has an abdominal or genital complaint; I'd do the required physical examination and if the patient is female and has a breast complaint, she'd be the one to examine the breast.<br /><br />Our patient was female and went for a follow-up check-up on her breast and ankle. For the breast, she noted a mass on the inner quadrant right breast and on ultrasound, the mass measured only 0.3 cm. And for the ankle, the patient tripped causing her slight pain yet both range of motion of the joint was intact. As another digression, "both range of motion" in this sense means ACTIVE range of motion, the patient is moving the joint on her own, and PASSIVE range of motion, the examiner is moving the joint itself.<br /><br />Anyway, we elicited the history and asked the right questions (for the breast: was there pain before menses, when did she first notice the mass, the rate of increase in size of the mass and was there discharge. And for the ankle: how was it injured, can she still climb the stairs and walk around and intensity of the pain on a scale of 1-10).<br /><br />And following our prior agreement, my partner did the breast exam. And then the unexpected happened; the preceptor called me to do a breast examination. In my head, "oh shit" and "okAAAy, I'm going to touch a female breast!". I have never done it before the encounter; I only read the technique in "Bates' Guide to Physical Examination and History Taking". I was bit nervous because I'm a male and the patient is female and for women, the breasts are one of the private parts. So I swallowed my nervousness and proceeded to do the breast exam asking first permission from the patient. Thankfully, it was not an issue for her that I was male. <br /><br />So I inspected one breast at a time, the other breast was covered. I looked at the nipple and the areola. And palpated the uncovered breast in an orderly manner; thinking inside "this is one of the sacred places for a woman and am I doing this right?!". And finally, I touched the areas near the armpits. But outside, still composed and relaxed. <br /><br />And when the feedback came, well the preceptor commented I could have participated more on the history-taking. My partner did most of the talking and I did most of the writing. What can I say, one of my weaknesses is human interaction. Not that I didn't say anything, I asked some key questions that were missed but for the most part, my partner was the one asking. One of the pitfalls of being a BS Biology graduate; I would rather stand back and analyze the data. <br /><br />Finally, commenting on my technique, the preceptor commended me for doing a good job and making the breast examination comfortable for the patient. She noted it was done in a professional manner (part of doing it properly is not uncovering both breasts but rather, only uncovering the breast to be examined). And I was thinking, "whew reading Bates' paid off!" and "wow, it wasn't noticeable that it was my first time doing it". <br /><br />Well, I guess touching a woman's breast taught me that you can really never be fully prepared. It helps that you read ahead of time and study but ultimately, it is how you react to the unexpected that will be final judge of competence in the medical profession. Imagine what would have been the reaction of the patient had I loudly exclaimed, "Oh shit, I'm touching a woman's breast!!!". That sure would have earned me a very low grade and not to mention a very loud slap from the patient herself. 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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Past me: Shet, bagsak ako sa oral exam. Pati mga quizzes ko at 2 long tests. Bwisit, mabubuhay pa ba ako...(seeing a taller and muscular-built person). Sino ka? Bat parang kilala kita?!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: Oh hi, I'm you 6 years from now. Guessing from your look; I think you just received your pre-final standing under Fr. Dacanay's class. F+ right?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Past me: What?! Pati paper namin bagsak?! Wala na, dishonor to the family name! Lecheng Theology oh!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: Ay...sorry; masyadong maaga. Anyway maniwala ka; mas marami ka pang mumurahing subject in the future.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Past me: Hah? Wala yan sa curriculum ko ah. What are you talking about?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: Oh right...ayaw mo pala mag-Medicine at this point in time</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Past me: Huwat?! Di ba mag-mamasteral ako sa Biology? Di ba dahil sa tamad ako at medyo bobo kaya di ako papasok ng medical school?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: (chuckles). Well, hindi ka naman bobo eh; tamad lang. At ayaw sa hirap. Sabihin na lang natin makakayanan mo ang intensity ng medical school at maraming mangyayari sa iyo 6 years from now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Past me: Talaga? At bakit ako papasok ng medical school, baba kaya ng grades ko at parang hindi naiisip na maging doktor. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: Sabihin na lang natin kapag last semester mo na...mababaliw ka sa Rizal Library. Ma-rerealize mo rin na ayaw mo sa hayop, halaman at mikrobyo. Gusto mo sa tao. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: Anyway, don't sell your self short. Magugulat ka na lang na kapag nandito ka na sa puntong ito; gusto mo pala magbasa ng maraming impormasyon.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Future me: Ooops I've said too much. Well, let's just say I'm finding it difficult to maintain that scholarship. Anyway, you'll survive Fr. Dacanay's class and you'll even thank him in the future for pushing you and making you read non-sensical texts. At least in medical school; straight to the point na ang mga babasahin mo. Sige...</span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-1145182395140090552013-12-31T01:36:00.000+08:002013-12-31T01:43:55.010+08:00New Year's EveDays will pass by until once again it is time again to return to listening to lectures and reading notes and memorizing a lot of information. During the vacation there were rituals to attend to like feasts, gift-giving and going to mass.<br />
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Well, it's not like I can instantly say that I don't believe anymore. Given our country and it's religiosity, you really can't be sure how open the reaction of people will be. So far, I haven't encountered any negative reactions. Let's just say for the sake of my own safety and sanity, I've decided not to divulge my current belief system to the family. But the funny thing; I don't find going to mass a drudgery. However, honestly my mind was blank during the entire service.<br />
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But then, why do we do these rituals? One can say there's a cultural, social and psychological reason for these rituals even though we think of them as drudgery. For instance, the typical Catholic mass. It's the same readings all over again. There's even a scheduled reading for a particular day. Yet many Catholics go to mass again and again. One can say they've been conditioned given the early indoctrination but that's more of a psychological reason; something not in the scope of this essay.<br />
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And then there are my rituals. In a regular day (Monday to Friday) it's: 1)go to class, 2)sleep in class, 3)eat lunch, 4)chat with friends, 5)go home, 6)eat dinner, 7)work-out, 8)read class transcriptions and 9)sleep. These sequence of events will vary if it's a weekend or a holiday but generally that's it. Pretty repetitive and simple and yes, boring. Yet why do I do it?<br />
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I'll venture a guess and say it's because of meaning. Now that's an overused word: meaning. You may have heard this, "what gives meaning to your life?" And well my answer to that would be the very rituals a person does during his/her lifetime.<br />
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Going back to the example of the Catholic mass if you really think about it, why would an<br />
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So, at least in my view, Catholics go to mass again and again because it gives meaning to their own lives in the same manner my ritual gives meaning to my own life. Before I continue on, note that I am not discouraging Catholics from going to mass. It so happened I thought of using that as an example. If that's what gives meaning to your own life go ahead; just don't force other people to go with you.<br />
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On this New Year's Eve, think of the rituals you've done the past 364 days. Did you do them because<br />
they add meaning to your own life or were you just forced? Were there some rituals you adopted because it became routine? Not that there's anything wrong with routine. But keep doing something everyday without pausing and thinking its significance; this action becomes routine. It is this becoming routine that unhealthy habits such as eating salty foods and a sedentary lifestyle becomes<br />
ingrained and very hard to change. On the other hand, starting a work-out schedule is hard because of the opposite reason: it's not routine.<br />
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And I anticipate that one of the common New Year's resolutions out there would be to get fit. And expectedly, these resolutions would all fail because that person didn't make "getting fit" part of his/her own routine. The rituals one adopts reflects the meaning one attaches to one's own life.<br />
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On this New Year's Eve if you're thinking of adopting new rituals and discarding old rituals you better re-define the meaning you give to your own life. You cannot blindly adopt a new ritual thinking you'll get the desired results without first re-defining your own meaning.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-10756624657401280482013-12-15T15:25:00.001+08:002013-12-15T15:25:12.117+08:00As The Year 2013 EndsIt's that time of the year again. After surviving 4 block exams; I have time to breathe a little bit. Well not too much because I have block exams approximately 10 days after the first day of class in January. And I have to say, I never thought I'd encounter so much difficulty.<br /><br />For instance, I actually mourn if I get a grade that is low. I metaphorically flagellate myself and imagine I have brought intense dishonor upon the family name; just to give you a very clear picture. I have never done this in high school nor in college. Heck, in college, I'm satisfied if I managed to pass the core subjects. The major subjects come easily to me, for some reason. For the major subjects, I study until 9 pm the day before the exam. And that's it. But in here, I'd actually spend an entire day at a coffee shop reading and re-reading the class transcription and books. I would even maximize the 2 am closing time of said coffee shop.<br />
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My diurnal cycle is pretty much destroyed. Before, I easily get sleepy before 9 pm. Now, my minimum sleeping time is 12 midnight. Sometimes, it reaches 2 am. Of course, this means I sleep most of the time in class. At first, I'm embarrassed but as time passed by I can't help it. Sometimes the lectures literally sap your strength away. I'm not even sorry I snore; thankfully, my seatmates wake me up. And yes, one of my friends pointed out how stupid this is but my reasoning is that I earn so-called "guilty points". Meaning I missed the lectures therefore I have to spend the entire night reading and re-reading the transcriptions.<br /><br />For the love life, well that's pretty much demolished as well. I mean I go out and meet people. But sometimes, I don't tell the truth. I don't tell that I'm a medical student and instead disguise myself as a yuppie. Sometimes, I even regret going to further studies because you're in different worlds. As much as you want to spend your nights and weekends boozing and cruising along Tomas Morato; you can't because it's either you have an exam coming up or you just want to sleep. And let's not forget the difference in intellect. It's a bit difficult meeting someone who can keep up with you in an intellectual conversation so sometimes you have no choice but to dumb yourself down or stay silent.<br /><br />To be honest, sometimes I question why'd I'd gotten that revelation in the first place. Sometimes I doubt if I'm going to be an excellent physician.<br /><br />But that changes when I meet patients. Well, at this point I'm not yet the one prescribing drugs or treatment. At first, I felt a bit intimidated because I have to speak in Filipino. Unfortunately, years of watching foreign films and my particular college have obliterated or at least made Filipino words coming from my mouth a bit awkward. And, I always feel anxious because there are some classmates around me and I think, I'm going to make a fool of myself. In short, my nerves always gets the better of me.<br /><br />However, as time passed by with more patients and with more reading of Bates'; I've gotten used to talking to patients. Filipino will always sound awkward coming from me. Or sometimes, I can't think of the right Filipino word to say in that instant but I push through it. As the year progresses and my knowledge of diseases increases thanks hugely to Pathology; I more or less know what questions to ask and what signs to look for.<br /><br />Doing a physical examination now comes a bit easier with more patients and more reading. Of course, the neurological examination will always be out of reach. Let us just say, it is so detailed and requires skill in hitting the nerve to elicit your deep tendon reflexes. <br /><br />And oddly, it feels gratifying knowing the right knowledge and the right way to deliver it to potential patients. May it be a simple cold or a fever. I include the delivery because let's face it, we're dealing with human beings not rational creatures. There are times wherein being direct is not optimal. It may even force your patient not to face his/her diagnosis. So you really have to empathize with a patient. Not all patients are the same and it requires a highly skilled eye and an empathy sense to determine which approach to use.<br /><br />As I type this, that is the reason why I keep fit: for the potential patients. For what use are you to a patient if you're the one suffering from a debilitating disease. It also increases your chances in getting a date but that's not my only reason. Well, of course it's not easy keeping a work-out schedule in the midst of multiple reading assignments.<br /><br />So yes, there are lots of things I'd have to sacrifice and I hope I don't become one of those physicians who patients loathe. Also, I don't want to become the stereotypical physician who can't jog or even do push-ups yet will prescribe to his/her patients exercise. <br /><br />In short, I don't want to become a hypocrite-physician. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-8389481290866865472013-11-10T21:17:00.000+08:002013-11-10T21:17:11.155+08:00Typhoons and UnbeliefThe recent typhoon "Yolanda", international name Haiyan, has reeked devastation in the Visayas region. And the only thing I can feel when I saw the images, children drowned, people homeless, the entire city of Tacloban wiped out, is despair. As a human being I am deeply saddened by the meaningless loss of life. As a Filipino citizen, once again I am mad at the idiot in Malacanang following this <a href="http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/nation/11/10/13/pnoy-walks-out-disaster-meeting-out-frustration">news</a>. He is totally unfit to be a leader but that is for another post. He is once again proving the need to <a href="http://correctphilippines.org/">correct the 1987 Constitution</a>. Anyway, I digress. <br /><br />This is not going to be about how the typhoon could have been prevented by a benevolent and omnipotent god. It would be like rubbing salt in a recent wound. This would just be about how I felt and reacted to the news.<br /><br />It can be summed up by a feeling of helplessness and hopelessness. I feel for the people affected by this super typhoon.<br />
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Which brings me to another point: how do I deal with religious patients. Currently, we are meeting patients and asking their history. One part of asking a patient history is asking for the patient's religion. There is a medical basis for that; for instance, a religion might not permit blood transfusions. No matter how dire the consequences if the patient does not allow for blood transfusions then we must refuse. Patient choice and autonomy.<br />
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A patient's religion goes beyond the medical because sometimes it is through religion that these patients find relief. An 18 y/o pediatric patient goes blind suddenly. In his history, he mentions that it is through his religion that he found hope. Prior to his blindness he was an athletic person so imagine how he initially felt and remember he's an adolescent. Remembering psychological developmental stages, it is around this time that a human being strives to be independent. <br /><br />A mother of 33 y/o patient with recurrent urinary tract infections (UTI) is stressed with her son's condition because urine culture has shown that the strain responsible for the infection is resistant to the first-line antibiotics necessitating more expensive medicines. The patient himself finds relief in serving in church activities. <br /><br />There are many more stories of such patients. Who am I to strip these patients of hope? So as to avoid challenging these patients, I create a space within myself. In those moments, I become a doctor, nothing more and nothing less. Their stories pass through me.<br /><br />In conclusion, I'm not going to deny that religion gives some people hope. I'm not superior nor inferior to religious people just because I don't rely on religion for hope. It's just that I have other sources of hope. Anyhow, let no one use the recent tragedy for any end whatsoever. At the end of the day, we're all human beings capable of empathy and feeling. Let us not ever forget that, ever.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-7639021196541766812013-10-17T11:58:00.000+08:002013-10-17T11:58:19.792+08:00Future Writing DirectionsAlthough I'm loathed to put a direction to what I'm going to write, it somehow helps if I have a guide. And I have ideas for essays really; I just haven't put my mind into putting them down in words. So here are some tidbits of what I plan to write (so I actually put them down in words instead of being in a month-long hiatus). And it ties me down to this blog so again I won't be in a month-long hiatus.<br /><br />1. Exercising and Medical School, is it possible?<div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-52559832333357642232013-10-17T11:46:00.003+08:002013-10-17T12:02:41.112+08:00The Ethics of Death and Dying<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>(Sidenote: This is the final essay for the requirements in our Medical Ethics class. I've somehow missed the way Ethics was taught to me during my undergraduate years. Yes, I'd had to read through Kant, Confucius, Foucault and Aristotle. Well, a little of each; I didn't exactly finish all of the required readings for the course but I got the main gist of their ideas. And indirectly, being forced to read so many readings that have no connection whatsoever to my course did benefit me during Medicine. At least now, I can honestly say, although the readings are long at least they're straight to the point. Unlike those philosophers, with Ricoeur as an exception<br /><br />Anyway, what are your thoughts about Death, Life and Dying? Please leave a comment and again, I apologize if I'm not able to reply instantaneously. Oh, this was written in reaction to the film, "Wit", more specifically the scene where Dr. Vivian Bearing was given the option of being resuscitated or not by the nurse.)</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;">There is always something unknown about
death. However, this is in direct contradiction to health professionals who
require certainty. A health professional performs a very detailed history and a
thorough physical examination. And then orders all sorts of diagnostic imaging
to arrive at a certain diagnosis. All of this certainty is built on avoiding
the greatest uncertainty of them all: death. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="line-height: 150%;"> What happens after we die? Nobody
knows and no one can really say for sure. Some say there is an afterlife, some
say there </span></span><span style="line-height: 24px;">isn't</span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="line-height: 150%;"> One thing is for sure, a human person ceases to be when he
dies and this is what is at the root of death. A human being cease. No one can
really say if he went to heaven or became one with the Force or any other
primordial energy. What is left is the pain of loss among the dead person’s
loved ones and those who knew the person during his life. <o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> No one can really explain death.
Sure, we health professionals can explain the pathophysiology of a patient’s
cancer and we can explain how the glutamate cascade is responsible for the death
of neurons in a stroke patient but we really can’t say why that particular
person. No amount of explanation can wash away a person’s cessation of
existence so it is but natural we stave away death. We invent all sorts of
contraptions and interventions to avoid death and prolong life just so we can
avoid the biggest uncertainty of all. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> Yet there are times when patients
opt for a DNR, Do Not Resuscitate. For a physician it may seem like a slap in
the cheek. Here you are trying to save this patient’s life yet this patient has
given up hope and prepares for the inevitable. Is the DNR patient less than
human for giving up? And conversely, is it always the default position to fight
for life at all costs? </span></div>
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The resounding answer is a big
no. A DNR can be seen as an acceptance rather than giving up. Sometimes life at
all costs can be too high a price. Can we say that a person is truly alive if
he or she is hooked to a machine? Far from being seen as a sign of weakness, a
DNR simply means another option. It is but another choice for which nobody can
be condemned for. Just as long as the circumstances were made clear to the
patient and he’s been given all the time. <o:p></o:p></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> How we treat the dying says about
how we think of Death in general. Treating them with scorn and prolonging Life
at all costs shows how we secretly fear death. Does a person cease to be a
human being if he accepts he’s going to die? Of course not for Death is but a
part of being human. There can be no Life if there is no Death. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> Far from thinking Death as a big
uncertainty, it can be thought of as another journey that all of us have to
take. We can try to delay it as much as possible by living a healthy lifestyle
or by heroic measures but inevitably we die. On a personal level, we can never be
sure of what is going to happen but for those left behind, we leave a legacy. So
really, a DNR is but another option. What is more pathetic are people who can’t
come to terms with the inevitable and prolong life at all costs.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> There are a lot more things worse
than dying. What we can do is treat Death with humanity instead of fear and
scorn. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-47058958962222694892013-10-17T11:37:00.000+08:002013-10-17T11:37:58.225+08:00Revelation<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>(Side note: This essay was written in response to a lecturer asking all of us why we chose to be in medical school. I have written about it in great detail here: </i></span><a href="http://thelukanmd.blogspot.com/2012/11/start-of-lukan-medical-journey.html">http://thelukanmd.blogspot.com/2012/11/start-of-lukan-medical-journey.html</a>. <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>As I was writing this particular essay, I focused on the particular event that started it all. And as the title suggests, it really did come to me like a revelation, a sudden jolt or realization. It's somehow of a refresher essay for me of why. I've changed since I've written the very detailed reason but somehow the reason is still there although somewhat modified.)<br /></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;"> It
starts with a crazy idea as these things go. As I was nearing the end of my
college stay; I absolutely had no idea what I was going to do after I graduate.
Initially, I started like those traditional medical students who right after
high school wanted to go to Medicine. I even chose the quintessential
pre-medical course. And yes, these decisions solely came from me; my parents
never forced me into anything. The only thing they chose was what university
I’d be entering. However, when I entered into college; I never imagined it
would be that hard. I breezed through high school getting high grades without
breaking a sweat. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;">It
got me thinking that if I went to Medicine; it would be harder and there would
be a lot more reading to be done. I </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">didn't</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> exert much effort back then. And
before I knew it, I was graduating and with no clear direction. So yes, I was
an underachiever back then. I didn't study throughout the night. And I even
slept early. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> I remember it was a morning during
my free time. I was sitting at a computer terminal in Rizal Library. I suddenly
had a revelation that I </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">didn't</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> like animals or plants or even microbes. What I
really liked was studying humans. I've been denying to myself that I was born
to be studying and learning. So without any prior notice to my parents; on that
same morning I registered myself to take the NMAT and enrolled myself in review
classes. All that was left to do was choose what medical schools to apply to. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> As
I was late in planning for medical school; I didn't know the choices. I couldn't apply to the medical school of the university because I lacked units
so I had to search for other options. So I searched through the Facebook
profiles of my </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">batch mates</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> and through that search I made 3 choices. Initially
it was only 2 but I added a 3</span><sup style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12pt;">rd</sup><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> option because of my unspectacular
undergraduate GWA. And to cut the story short, I was accepted to only 2. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> So far, I can say I made the right
choice. Although, sometimes it depresses me because I’m 24 yet I’m still in
school and still dependent on my parents. However, it brings me unspeakable joy
when I get asked by people about medical knowledge. Heck, every parental visit
sometimes becomes a medical consultation. And I haven’t even obtained the
mystical “M.D.” added to my surname. It comes with a pressure to be updated but </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;">I've</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> learned it only drives me to learn and read further. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-46376685675198274732013-10-17T11:31:00.002+08:002013-10-17T11:31:22.791+08:00The Ethics of the Patient-Doctor Confidentiality<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>(Side note: This essay was written in reaction to this: </i></span><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MoP7xgW1A9U">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MoP7xgW1A9U</a>.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i> To summarize, the doctor in question posted on Facebook some sensitive patient details. The doctor didn't post the patient's name. However some people want the doctor to be fired because she violated patient confidentiality. How about you, what are your thoughts about patient confidentiality? Please leave a comment below )</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> At
Mercy Hospital, there was an obstretrician/gynecologist who upon posting on her
Facebook wall patient details; she was fired. She was merely venting her
frustrations because said patient was late for her appointments. She did not
post said patient’s name or photo and only included some medical data that is
not specific for any patient. Her post ended with “May I show up late for her
delivery?” <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> In the USA, there is no law
prescribing the exact specifications of the patient-doctor relationship.
Instead it was based on the Hippocratic Oath with this passage: "Whatever,
in connection with my professional service, or not in connection with it, I see
or hear, in the life of men, which ought not to be spoken of abroad, I will not
divulge, as reckoning that all such should be kept secret." And
information divulged by the patient can only be said to fellow medical
professionals as evidenced from this passage, again from the Hippocratic Oath: "Those
things which are sacred, are to be imparted only to sacred persons; and it is
not lawful to impart them to the profane until they have been initiated into
the mysteries of the science."<sup>2<o:p></o:p></sup></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> And instead, doctor-patient
confidentiality is centered on ethics and there has to be a doctor-patient
relationship to warrant secrecy for effective healthcare. Laws only specify up
to what extent such information can be made available. Such cases include
notifiable diseases and medical databases although patient identifiers are not
included. Finally, only the patient can void the doctor-patient relationship and
in medico-jurisprudence cases where medical information is necessary.<sup>2<o:p></o:p></sup></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> First and foremost, there was no
patient-identifier present in the doctor’s Facebook post. The patient’s photo
was not even present on the doctor’s wall making it difficult to say that the
doctor was pertaining to a specific patient. The obstetrician/gynecologist was
merely expressing her right to free speech and venting because of her time
wasted due to the patient’s lateness. It can be argued that her post was
demeaning to the patient but only up to a certain extent. It can be likened to
an employee in a company venting about her customers but we seldom hear
complaints about these people. However, it seems that the doctor is subject to
higher standards than most employees. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> The doctor-patient relationship is a
relationship that is based on trust. This means that the patient can trust the
doctor to always do what is in his/her own best interest. The doctor is tasked
to always be professional towards patients and is trusted that he/she will
prescribe the necessary medical interventions. This element of trust is crucial
because without it; healthcare cannot be effective. <sup>1</sup><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> What people are reacting in this
doctor’s case would be the issue of trust. Even though there were no
patient-identifiers present in the Facebook wall; they feel that the trust
people put in doctors has been violated because details that can only be
obtained from a real-live patient has been announced in public. There is an
implied understanding that parts of the medical interview is confidential;
there are exceptions but even then, these are rare. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> And when doctors reveal intimate
details, it was as if the doctor was undressing a patient in public and exposing
the patient’s body. It is this act of nakedness that is inherent in the
doctor’s seemingly harmless Facebook post. The doctor may not have posted the
name or photo but she has still exposed part of the patient to the public. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> Which brings us to the final point:
should the doctor have been fired for exercising her right to free speech? And
the resounding answer is no. Instead she should have been given a reprimand.
Medical professionals are subject to a higher standard because there is an
element of trust in order to deliver effective health care. The difficulty lies
in determining where does this trust end and where does it begin. With the
advent of new technologies such as social media; information is easily spread.
For instance, post an embarrassing photo and it will spread like wildfire. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;"> As such, all medical professionals
must always be cautious in posting details about patients even if they are unremarkable
and innocent. It also helps if the tone is in a neutral manner. It is not that
medical professionals are to be silent but they should be highly aware that
whatever they say is subject to higher scrutiny because they deal directly with
people’s lives and can affect them. Whether we like it or not, we will always
be under intense scrutiny and as such we will have to deal with job pressures
in a professional manner. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;">References:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;">1. “The Doctor–Patient Relationship Challenges, Opportunities, and
Strategies”. Susan Dorr Goold, Mack
Lipkin, Jr. 25. Jul, 2013. <u>J Gen Intern Med</u>: 1999 January; 14 (Suppl 1):
S26-S33. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 150%;">2.
"Healthcare - Doctor-Patient Confidentiality." <u>Encyclopedia of
Everyday Law</u>. Ed. Shirelle Phelps. Gale Cengage, 2003. <u>eNotes.com</u>.
25 Jul, 2013. <http://www.enotes. com/healthcare-reference/>. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-55648651825777580692013-10-17T11:13:00.001+08:002013-10-17T11:13:05.033+08:00Integrity<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 150%; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(<i>Side note: This essay was written in response to a lecture about integrity. The funny thing was, I had to cut that class because I wasn't feeling that well so I had to rely on 2nd hand accounts of the lecture so that I know what the lecturer was talking about. Anyway, what I've written is not just for the sake of passing the class but it comes from the heart. Who knows, maybe someday I'll come back to this post if ever I feel like giving up or taking shortcuts detrimental to a patient's health and life.) </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> Integrity is something that is important in all aspects of life. It is
not the sole monopoly of medical doctors yet due to the high expectations
placed upon medical doctors; it is highly stressed upon us. For instance, a
doctor without integrity will easily prescribe drugs just because the drug
company gave him a huge financial incentive without even thinking of the
possible side effects that the patient can experience due to the drug. Worse,
it might not even be indicated for the patient’s condition. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> However, integrity
is not something that is easily passed on or easily taught. It is not something
that can be learned through a class. It is something experienced and observed.
Also, it is something that is imbibed meaning that a person must choose to
embody integrity. And in choosing to do so, that person must have a very deep
reason for embodying an abstract yet important idea. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> Practically, a
medical doctor with integrity will be visited by more patients because he can
be trusted to give cost-effective medical interventions without being swayed by
the pharmaceutical companies. On a much deeper level, said medical doctor can
sleep better at night because he did not place any human being in harm’s way.
Either way, a medical doctor with integrity is a full-fledged medical doctor. </span></div>
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it mean to embody integrity? The most important thing is that this is an
ongoing question that the medical doctor must answer everyday of his life. This
question is re-asked and re-answered whenever new situations arise to combat
the medical doctor’s values or outlooks on medical practice. That is not to say
that integrity is limited to the medical practice. It is not. The question of
integrity permeates even outside of the medical doctor’s practice. It permeates
the life and relations of the medical doctor. Even the simple act of being on
time for every appointment, however small a gesture, is already an act of
integrity. And yet integrity is a question. It is something that is redefined
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integrity can be likened to an ongoing re-evaluation in the sense that it
requires re-updating of one’s outlook and values. To put it more concretely,
what may seem an act of integrity then can be an act without integrity today.
No act can really be defined as full of integrity for definitions will
invariably exclude the person who will execute said act. One can only be guided
by his own values and other human being’s own values. It is important that a
medical doctor always strives to better himself. In the fullest sense of this
phrase: a medical doctor is not just a medical doctor. </span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-20369154736630849262013-10-17T11:05:00.001+08:002013-10-17T11:05:41.975+08:00Apologies (or Excuses) I apologize to my regular readers (if I have any) for the lack of blog posts these months. 2nd year Medicine in the Philippine setting is a bit more challenging. Many more subjects hence more books to read. Thick and heavy books.<br /><br />Anyway, I'll be posting a few essays I've written for my Medical Ethics class. Not just because they got high grades but well, someone might benefit from them.<br /><br />Finally, to describe 2nd year Medicine in a few words: exhausting, endless readings but fun. Here is where what I learned in 1st year (Human Anatomy, Human Physiology, Medical Biochemistry, Foundations of Medicine and Preventive and Community Medicine) blends into these subjects: Pathology, Microbiology and Parasitology, Pharmacology, Clinical Evaluation, Medicine I, Neurology I, Preventive and Community Medicine II, Medical Ethics, Pediatrics I, Basic Science Research. 2nd year is where diseases, drugs and how to conduct a physical examination and medical history are taught.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-26369647636010872552013-05-19T12:10:00.000+08:002013-05-19T12:16:23.522+08:00How Medical Missions Actually Make People PoorerYou're all familiar with this: health professionals wanting to help their fellow countrymen/women. And since they are trained for giving services to others, what better way to help then to give a free medical check-up and free drugs a.k.a. a medical mission. I am not against people helping other people out that is a very noble gesture. However, we have to look at the unintended consequences and the long-term effects of these missions. <br />
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Sure, you may have helped people by giving free diagnoses and free medicines. But without looking at the systemic cause of their ailments; the people you've treated will just get the same disease. Also, with the current set-up of medical missions, you've removed their agency and made them into mendicants dependent on health professionals for good health. <br />
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Any medical mission will thus have to be based on this premise: would you give people fish or teach people to fish?<br />
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In any case, my specific recommendations would be the following: <br />
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1. Remove food supplements from the roster of drugs you'll be giving to people. You're really not helping them. In the medical mission I participated in, the people almost always requested for food supplements for themselves and their own children thinking it was the norm. Sure, you may keep people in good nutrition for a short period of time but that doesn't attack the root cause of their malnutrition in the first place which is poor eating habits.<br />
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Think about it, where do you get vitamins and minerals from nutritious food like fruits and vegetables right? So people should eat more of fruits and vegetables rather than junk foods. Of course, the usual counter of the people being helped would be a) because their children doesn't want to eat fruits and vegetables and b)the parents are busy working so they cannot guide their children into eating proper food. Impress upon them that is it their own responsibility to maintain their own health and of their children. It is their job to teach their children and caretakers proper eating habits not the responsibility of health professionals.<br />
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2. Only take drugs for diseases present in the community you intend to help. This I admit entails a lot of homework because before the medical mission proper some people will have to go into the community and ask around. This saves time and effort. Why would you stock up on drugs that have no recipients in the first place? And this is connected to point 1. It also removes the temptation of people stocking up on unnecessary drugs. Remember that all drugs have side-effects and should not be taken unless directed by a medical doctor.<br />
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3. Eliminate "tuli" missions for they are really not that medically necessary. Honestly, there are minimal benefits to be gained by circumcision. Sure, it decreases the chance of acquiring sexually-transmitted diseases; however, the better approach would be to educate the people on sexuality and how to prevent transmissions of STDs. You may ask why I include sexuality. Well, any talk on STD prevention will always need a talk on human sexuality. People will have to be aware that their own sexuality is something beautiful not abominable. Also, educating males about proper cleaning of their penises is much better than mandatory circumcision. Anyhow, I digress.<br />
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There is a strong stigma against uncircumcised men in the Philippines but ask yourself, are you health professional or a "datu"? You are there to help with medical emergencies and cultural passages of manhood need not concern you. Does it really make sense that a 10 - 12 y/o boy is forced to undergo mutilation of his foreskin just for the sake of being called a "man"? The better option is to let the boy decide for himself.<br />
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And to make this point inclusive of all medical missions: only prepare for medical interventions that are necessary to improve overall health. So giving antibiotics after being examined by a medical doctor, dental work and referring to the nearest hospital is okay. These sorts of interventions.<br />
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4. Frame your medical missions in the preventive aspect not on the curative aspect. Curing diseases is good however it makes better sense to prevent these diseases. Take for instance pulmonary tuberculosis and hypertension. These were the common diseases I encountered and in fact common diseases found amongst Filipinos. The Department of Health already has its TB-DOTS program in order to provide early detection and treatment of tuberculosis. Inform the community that tuberculosis is not something to be scared off and there is the TB-DOTS program. I am aware that it is not that simple; however, we have to start from somewhere.<br />
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And hypertension is really connected to point 1. If you really think about it, poor eating habits contribute to the high incidence of hypertension found amongst the poor. The cheapest foodstuffs are those with a high salt concentration. So if you don't correct their poor eating habits; you've really not helped them at all. Remember that maintenance drugs of hypertension are expensive and have to be taken everyday.<br />
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So in the long-run the economic costs will outweigh whatever curative intervention you hope to accomplish with the current model of medical missions. Not to mention the unnecessary loss of human life.<br />
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The list is not exhaustive. There maybe some other aspects that can be improved; however, always remember that it is the people's responsibility to good health not the health professionals.<br />
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Now, I anticipate that these recommendations would be met by hostile resistance amongst other health professionals and the people you intend to help. Filipinos are great enablers after all. But it is precisely this behavior of Filipinos that these changes must be implemented. And I also anticipate that the number of people who will attend your medical missions after these changes have been implemented will drastically decrease.<br />
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However, at the end of the day; it is their responsibility to maintain their health. But to be realistic, introduce these changes by "breaking it to them gently". For instance, inform the community leader that there will be changes to your medical missions and your intentions behind the changes.<br />
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Change is always hard and it's easier to keep to the status quo but really, the status quo just produces mendicants. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-20303945811014756592013-05-02T14:20:00.000+08:002013-05-02T14:20:24.842+08:00A Dichotomy It's one of those things that you don't intend to do but you are forced out of familial pressure. Me, visiting a shrine in Manaoag, Pangasinan. I've been here before but this time it's different. I no longer belief in anything supernatural for it is an insult to the scientific training I've received and the medical training I'm currently undergoing. Well, I just sucked up my disgust and walked around. It has improved. Before there was no canteen, the rest rooms sucked and the big statue of the Virgin Mary was hidden away. Currently, it's now at the center of a grandiose structure with candles placed around it. I can imagine at night the big statue being illuminated by candlelight.<br />
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How I hated it.<br />
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Contrast that with the Philippine General Hospital. I can honestly say it has not improved. You have diagnostic laboratories just across PGH and you have the Faculty Medical Arts Building just inside the premises of PGH. For those unaware, FMAB is a private hospital. Anyway, what do these two points imply? Simple, the Philippine General Hospital currently sucks. Well, to put it more substantially: a) why would you have private diagnostic laboratories across a hospital that is mandated to provide the health needs of the the common public and finally, b) why would you have a private hospital, FMAB, inside a public hospital, PGH?<br />
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And I hesitate in going to the provincial hospital in Pangasinan. It might even be in worse condition than the Philippine General Hospital.<br />
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But somehow, I'm not surprised at this strange dichotomy. The religious when sick ascribe their healing to the intervention of a supernatural deity despite the clear evidence that it was the medical intervention that saved them. And let's not forget the placebo effect.<br />
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It is time to move forward. I am not saying that all Filipinos should be atheists/agnostics although it would warm my heart if we were to become a purely atheistic country. Rather, it is time to prioritize rational actions over divine interventions. Gods will not save us from our wretched conditions. Humans are the ones responsible for these conditions and it will be humans who will solve them.<br />
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When we were done with the visit; I noticed something else. There were fewer people. I mean during the 1990s, the time when we visited the shrine, there were lines just to get inside the basilica. And the area where you put candles was crowded. Of course, I can't conclusively say the number of visitors to Manaoag decreased. But you can't help but wonder. <br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-45421774353641544062013-04-25T16:19:00.001+08:002013-04-25T16:19:42.659+08:00This Time...Something Political So haven't blogged for awhile; blame the vacation. I have absolutely nothing to rant against...maybe except for those missionaries preaching in buses. Now, I'm well aware that they have the right to freely express themselves but it is so tempting to make their activities illegal. What about my right to freely enjoy the bus journey itself? But enough of that. It's April 2013 with the May 2013 elections looming and guess what; I'm not voting.<br />
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Let's see, between you and me; it is such a waste of time and effort. Now, now...before you dismiss this as a rant born out of laziness, lack of civil duty and disgust for my country; in fact, I love my country but I'm not blind to its defects. Kind of how I love my college alma mater. I respect how it molded me and how I currently view the world but it doesn't mean I am not blind as to how some of its graduates are flawed and that's putting it lightly.<br />
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Ever notice that most Senators, Congressmen and Presidents, with President Aquino as the very epitome, are idiots. Worse, they win solely on name-recall. In fact, if Corazon Aquino didn't die just before the May 2010 elections; her son wouldn't have won the presidency. Even if some Filipino with some brains campaign; they have little chances of winning. Our current system favors the popular so it is no wonder why Filipino politicians are a)idiots, b)celebrities and/or c)have famous last names. So potential voters like myself who are not easily bought into popularity and have a tendency to scrutinize everything are diminished against the majority of the Filipino populace who tend to view things in a more simplistic manner.<br />
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Not saying that the Filipino masses are idiots because that will tend to put the blame entirely on their shoulders. They are partly responsible yes, but the current system is the bigger culprit. Notice how the senatorial candidates campaign as individuals whereas in other countries; politicians campaign as parties with solid platforms, policies and programs. And who can help not notice that our parties are just instruments to power with candidates shifting to the favorable party. In short, when politicians are voted into power; they are voted as individuals with no regard for cooperation. <br />
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Our entire system is flawed. There is no escaping this stark reality. You will have some Filipinos proclaim loudly onto cyberspace that "THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THE PHILIPPINES!" but the bitter reality is there is something utterly and devastatingly wrong with the present country. And the sooner one realizes this; the sooner the Philippines can become better. <br />
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Let's take poverty: <a href="http://www.nscb.gov.ph/poverty/defaultnew.asp">it has remained unchanged since 2006</a>. And this despite the Aquino administration's massive spending on its CCT, conditional cash transfer, programs. Gee, when you tend to provide dole-outs (let us not kid ourselves, no matter how many word-plays the Aquino administration provides; it is in essence a DOLE-OUT), it makes people dependent on other people to succeed. In other words, you are just promoting a culture of free-loading and mendicancy.<br />
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So do we take to the countryside and wage open war on the current government? Let's see, an armed group has been doing that for so long: do you really want to give your lives for an outdated ideology that has already been proven inapplicable in reality? <br />
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I propose these solutions:<br />
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Let us start at the personal level. The sooner you realize that no one can save your self except for your self; the better. Take for instance alms-giving. I used to give money to those who were asking but thanks to encountering a very self-entitled man along the avenue of E. Rodriguez I've longed discontinued the practice. <br /><br />Seriously, I mean imagine me walking alongside E. Rodriguez when I get accosted by this man, along with his family and child, asking me for money because he forgot to bring enough to commute back home. So I asked him all sorts of questions but for some reason I felt he was a scam artist; by an act of coincidence, I also encountered a scam artist along E. Rodriguez. In the end, I didn't give him money. And he had the nerve to get all high and mighty with me! Imagine, the very nerve! I was seething inside because first of all, not my fucking fault you forgot to budget enough money to commute back home and second of all, you should be ashamed that a grown man like you is begging for money from a complete stranger in front of your child. I just stared at him, not wanting to make this father seem more impotent in front of his child; I'm not that cruel. <br />
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It may seem a sadistic philosophy but what would you prefer, babying other adults? It is this sense of mendicancy that pervades the Philippines and you wonder why we don't progress. And by extension, how some politicos get into office. And how the Catholic Church got its stranglehold over the populace in the first place. <br />
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And the more far-reaching solution:<a href="http://correctphilippines.org/"> support Constitutional Reform</a>. See, those idiotic politicos are given the chance to assume political power because our 1987 Constitution is especially designed that those with popularity win. And by extension, why jobs are so scarce here. The very ultimate example: our UPCM, University of the Philippines College of Medicine, doctors are working as doctors...IN THE USA! Oh, don't get mad at them; get mad at the 1987 Constitution with all those economic restrictions. <br />
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Until that wretched 1987 Constitution is corrected don't expect our politics to progress beyond popularity and name-recall. Don't even get shocked if Nancy Binay manages to become a Senator because that's how our Constitution is designed. <br /><br />Until that time, don't expect me to vote. <br />
<br /><br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-13626745641545151952013-02-02T16:02:00.000+08:002013-02-02T16:06:38.026+08:00A Priori Assumptions <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">These are assumptions that already have it's conclusion beforehand. The very common example of this is "
<span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence. If you are an atheist, why you do affirm that God does not exist?". I encountered this early on in my life in high school when a professor uttered this formulation: "you cannot deny something which does not exist". So, at first glance; seems my unbelief is unjustified and in fact, I held on to this formulation as basis for believing in a god.</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">However, this is a very good example of a priori assumptions meaning that the existence of a god is already assumed when it should be the other way around: assume first a neutral stance, a god does or does not exist. Then, you go about proving your deity's existence.<br /><br />Let's use this analogy:<br /><br />Suppose you want to discover a cure for cancer. You don't start with the assumption that there exists a cure for cancer. You start by assuming there doesn't exist a cure then you search for answers that will lead you to said cure. Imagine the laughter you'd get if you were to defend your research protocol with the a priori assumption that you already have a cure for cancer. </span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;"> </span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">I post about this because I encountered this argument in the Filipino Freethinkers Facebook page. A theist, a Theology student, posted it and I had the pleasure of refuting his biological justification, he used the existence of the genetic code to argue for the existence of an intelligent god; so I had cause to jump in. And I was a bit disappointed with the refutation he gave me: original sin caused those genetic imperfections meaning because Adam and Eve did it and by extension the bible is literal. So imagine hard science facts, I used the existence of introns and exons, genetic diseases and reverse transcriptase to argue against an intelligent god, while he used Adam and Eve. Can you imagine if he was to defend a scientific thesis? </span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;"><br /></span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">Anyway, I mention that incident because such people, theists, always cheat on their arguments. They always assume beforehand that their god exists and instead of resorting to hard facts like Science they always use long philosophical ramblings or their holy book. </span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;"><br /></span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">So if someone wants to prove a god's existence, it's very simple: provide evidence. However, I will tell you that these things <u>DO NOT</u> count as evidence:</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">1. the bible (do you really want to go there? With your god condoning slavery, genocides, rape, misogyny and torture)</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">2. subjective experiences like miracles and apparitions (I mean it should be something objective meaning I, personally, can go out and check it <u>INDEPENDENT</u> of you. Heck, use this as evidence and I'll think there's something wrong with your pre-frontal cortex.)</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;"><br /></span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">And please, do not even think of shifting the burden of proof on me. The one who proposes the claim (God exists) must be the one who proves it. </span></span></span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-88359298681440117322013-01-27T00:45:00.005+08:002013-01-27T00:55:14.023+08:00A Conversation While Walking Near Trinity Lunch time with Mary John was over and as we were walking near Trinity University; a bell struck and some ritual prayer was being broadcasted in the university speakers. If I had been alone; I'd have walked on because I don't belief in such rituals but out of respect of my friend I had to stop and pretend obeisance. Funny thing is, he's not Catholic (from his explanation, he belongs to another denomination of Christianity so essentially not a Roman Catholic like me. But unlike me, he's still a theist). He stopped out of respect of their beliefs. <br />
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Well, he knows of my unbelief and he respects them. While I also respect his need for religion. The only comment I make is that I hope he doesn't trade his glorious La Sallian brains and blindly follow someone just because said someone claims he/she hears God speaking through him/her. Anyway, we had a very animated discussion about respect. That while my views are valid; I should also give Roman Catholics respect. However, I disagreed a bit because what does this "respect" mean. <br />
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Notice how I'm forced to go along with Catholic religious rituals just because it is the majority's religion. Just because it is the majority position; I have to go along with it because I belong to the minority? I mean I wanted to walk out of a lecture by the Physiology Sensei last December (it wasn't Medicine-related and it was the partly the subject of this <a href="http://thelukanmd.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-physicians-integrity.html">entry</a>). He basically invited a religious alumna to share her experiences and emphasizing that belief in the Judeo-Christian god is necessary for one to have values and to survive medical school.<br />
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They also emphasized that values come from the bible and it is integral to being good physicians. Part of me wanted to question this; apparently the bible can be the source of all values...well disregarding the <a href="http://irregulartimes.com/secrets1.html">genocides</a>. Alas, did not. Well what would you have done had your Physiology professor been lecturing? Would you have risked being given a failing grade? <br />
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And this happened when I was questioned by a fellow classmate about my newly-found unbelief. I'm a bit wary answering these types of questions from theists because I know I'd be met with disdain. Oh, I met disdain all-right. Well, not from the questioner, he was genuinely curious, but from his friend. I've made my dislike for her clear but apparently my unbelief cannot be respected. She was acting bored and I was getting the feeling from her that she really didn't want to listen. See, I could tolerate her dislike (she isn't completely faultless by the way; anyway I don't begrudge her dislike of me. I'm not in medical school to be liked by everyone). But I couldn't tolerate sloppy manners and thinking. I mean had I wanted to inquire about their theism; I would have listened whole-heartedly and if I had questions I would have asked them with respect. I mean had she, the one I disliked, been the one speaking about her views I would have listened, at the very least I would have faked listening. But apparently, I belong to the minority so I am easily dismissed.<br />
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To be fair, we were all tired from waiting for a long experimental procedure so maybe that wasn't a time for a proper philosophical discourse. Still, really couldn't tolerate sloppy thinking (her manners are somewhat excused but her disdain and lack of respect isn't). <br />
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Also, where is "respect" when I can't question their beliefs? How can I turn a blind eye to these items: <a href="http://www.firstpost.com/world/doctors-refuse-abortion-indian-woman-dies-in-irish-hospital-524717.html">a woman dies needlessly in an Irish hospital because the fetus still has a fetal heartbeat; never mind if the baby is already dead</a>, <a href="http://www.interaksyon.com/article/49527/ex-doh-chief-blames-arroyo-church-for-sharp-increase-of-hiv-infections-in-ph">our increased HIV cases is partly caused in part by the blind obedience of GMA to the Church's demand that condoms should not be distributed, </a><a href="http://www.boston.com/globe/spotlight/abuse/stories/010602_geoghan.htm">the cover-up of many child molestation cases (there are many so I'll just cite one)</a> and so much more. See, how can I stomach these many wrongs done by the Church? Also add the pope's erroneous statement that <a href="http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/7950671.stm">condoms cannot prevent HIV/AIDS</a>. See, as a physician-to-be; I cannot stand by and let these erroneous medical judgements be perpetrated by these so-called "holy men". So imagine how many people has the Church killed or molested either directly and indirectly? <br />
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So excuse me for escaping my veneer of apathy but I couldn't stomach these inconsistencies and wrongs. And "respect" doesn't mean I can't question your views; in fact, it means we can question each other. It doesn't mean I have to agree with your views (or you with mine). We can leave the discussion, I refuse to call it a debate because a debate implies a winner and a loser, with disagreements. These disagreements actually strengthen us. Respect means that all views are given equal air time and not just because it belongs to the majority position.<br />
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To end this entry; I think the reason why theists have this false idea of respect is due to what is called "The God of Personal Necessity". I provide a part verbatim:<br />
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"Of course, it's also one of the hardest fallacies to explain to a
believer because so much of their persona is invested in this delusion. That their god fills their personal requirements so perfectly and
completely is often the reason they subscribe to the 'faith' in the
first place. To consider for one moment that their god might not
conform to their requirements is to attack their entire reason to be
deluded in the first place." Taken from <a href="http://rosarubicondior.blogspot.com/search?q=personal+necessity">here</a>.<br />
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Just because I question your belief does not mean I am attacking you personally; it just means I couldn't stomach the wrong being done by your fellow believers and your religious leaders. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-15402962399615845632013-01-26T23:37:00.000+08:002013-01-26T23:39:50.225+08:00Values from the Big Three What school are you from?<br />
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Red flag alert! You see, when someone asks me that, especially someone who I meet on a dating site; I have a sinking feeling in the deepest pit of my stomach. That only means one thing; there is a high chance that said person is either a La Sallian or Atenean.<br />
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But, we are getting ahead of ourselves. The night began as any other night; me, reading my favorite medical school book, Guyton, after exercising. In my favorite haunt, a 24/7 Burger King; really can't study in my room because of the temptation of the bed. Exams were nearing; hence, the necessity for re-re-reading. But I am only mortal and require breaks here and there. And with the presence of the Internet; it's easier to meet random strangers.Then that person send me a message and I sent my contact details. As we were conversing; that infamous question came up.<br />
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You see, for me; I really do not care what school you graduate from as long as what you say and do is not idiotic. And if you wave that Isko, Atenean or La Sallian diploma then be prepared to meet my high expectations. And my suspicions were correct; I was speaking to a La Sallian. A fellow brethren; no matter how you spin it Ateneans and La Sallians resemble each other. Both schools have high tuition fees and are run by liberal religious orders. See, I have this rule for not considering my fellow brethren because they have this tendency to be so full of themselves. This tendency is even increased if the course has something to do with the corporate world. But being me; really lenient so decided to give it a shot.<br />
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To cut this entry short; it was literally and metaphorically a date from hell. An incarnation of the very essence of the infernal pits if it ever exists. If it doesn't then this experience can serve as basis for said place.<br />
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Some snippets of conversation:<br />
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"You know, my father bought this condo unit for me" (Notice the false pride; since when has it been bragging rights if someone else bought a very luxurious condo unit for you. So no dignity for the labor of your own hands then?)<br />
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"So where is the Ateneo High School Building located?" (Really now, paranoid much?) <br />
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"Why are you staring so far off; is the condo unit small?" (It wasn't because I was controlling my anger) <br />
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"Eww, you're not that hot; you know, you are okay to look at but I think you should focus on bulking up" (As if my body is any of your business!)<br />
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"Are you really a medical student? Come on; show me your ID!" (At this point, I was waiting for the moment that coitus would happen. I was hoping my rage would disappear with the post-coital bliss)<br />
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Alas; it did not. I initially said I would spend the night but I couldn't stomach the pomposity and the arrogance. So I stormed out of that condo unit; never mind that I looked like the asshole. If anything good came out of that experience is that I was given the necessary fury to first-read 3.5 Physiology transes at 12 midnight. <br />
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During that date; I was really dumbfounded. Where were the values of La Salle? I mean for Ateneans; we are taught "magis" (literally means "more"). So you are expected to be very good at anything and to give it your best shot. Also we are taught to be "cura personalis" ("persons for others"). For La Sallians; I have no idea but I know they are taught values along with excellent education. I mean I have La Sallian friends that I look up to; heck, two of my medical school friends are La Sallians. <br />
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I was literally comparing that date with my two La Sallian friends. Let's call them "Mary John" and "Don". Mary John and Don aren't the typical La Sallians; not conyos or anything that would suggest they come from that respectable school in Taft. They are so laid-back and down to earth that I instantly warmed up to both of them (well, I'm closer to Mary John because I had this tendency to use his Iphone during classes and now, his personal wi-fi hot-spot but I digress). See, Mary John is the very quiet type but I wasn't fooled. Day one from spotting him; I knew he was someone to watch for and true enough, behind his quiet and thin demeanor lay the seeds of excellence.<br />
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He's the very epitome of what a La Sallian should be; smart yet caring as he demonstrated to me when I, uhm, fucked up. Partied BEFORE an exam and I paid for it for getting exam grades lower than my usual standards. So I mourned it and even came to the verge of crying and asking him his personal assessment if I still had what it took to be a kick-ass physician (well, I don't want to be just any garden-variety physician). With his quiet words of encouragement and his humble smile; he still said yes with the follow-up,"Huwag ka na mag-party before ng exam ah".<br />
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So really can't be mad at all La Sallians. I have great respect for that venerable school in Taft; not really into the Ateneo-La Salle rivalry. For me, it can lead to disastrous results because the exaggerated version can lead into disunity and distrust. So what are the values taught by the La Sallian education? If at the end of your La Sallian or Atenean education you end up being like that date from hell; then I feel sorry for you. So don't blame me if I tend to gravitate towards Iskos.<br />
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Well, not that all Iskos are down-to-earth but the chances of meeting persons who are full of themselves are markedly increased if said person comes from either that school from Katipunan or Taft and if their courses have something to do with business. <br />
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Then again maybe I really have the shittiest luck. <br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-1570217719687442462013-01-20T03:49:00.001+08:002013-01-20T03:49:03.558+08:00The Glory of the VaginaThe following exchange happened during the last-minute studying for Physiology (Urinary and Reproductive Physiology). Well, not exactly verbatim.<br /><br />Me: (Speaking to a girl friend). You know, your vagina is a very beautiful organ<br />
<br />Girl Classmate: It's getting a bit creepy discussing that. <br />
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Me: What?! (Got surprised at this point because I was like practically praising their genitalia and yet, here she was acting all bothered and disturbed. I mean I would have totally understood had I been making disparaging remarks about their genitalia but I wasn't. I was like pouring praise upon praise about menstruation, ovulation and pregnancy. Seriously, it is a very beautiful topic. I can only appreciate what women go through intellectually; I don't have a vagina. Hmmm...imagine if I'd been born a woman; I'd be praising penises but I digress)<br />
<br />Me: There's nothing wrong with it; your reproductive cycle is a very beautiful process.<br />
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Clearly, there is something wrong when a biological male can freely discuss a woman's vagina while a biological female cannot. Not that I'm reducing women to their vaginas; I mean gender is a very complicated topic. Gender is something not just reducible to one's genitalia. But since I'm a scientist; I only can discuss something that is concrete. And in this case, the human female vagina. <br /><br />Here I was, after studying the female reproductive tract intensively, spreading my new-found praise and appreciation for what women go through; only to be met with disdain by a biological female.<br />
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Women, there is nothing wrong with discussing your vagina. Don't let anyone else discuss it for you (not even me, even if I am a well-intentioned fellow). Own it; spread your own vagina-lore. I mean I understand about treating your vagina as sacrosanct, I agree it is a very divine organ, but does it have to be coupled with profanity. Why does the mere word "vagina" cause you alarm? <br /><br />See, the problem I have with this line of thinking is that it fosters ignorance of sexual matters. And if we extend this line of thinking further; it fosters sexism in the bedroom. Look at the recent RH Bill debates when Senators Santiago and Cayetano inserted the line "safe and satisfying sex" only to be met with laughter among 5 male senators. And further compounded by Senator Escudero's assumption that just because penile penetration happened; the woman gets an orgasm which of course, is not the case. <br />
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And contrast this with the proliferation of penis vandalism; there were many such drawings in Ateneo. So, discussing a penis is okay while vaginas are profane? See the sexual double-standard. Not discussing about the vagina is a very sure way of avoiding unwanted pregnancies; oh wait...why did I just see a girl-child carrying a baby just days ago? <br />
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Think on this: Of all organs, only the vagina is capable of physically touching all of humanity. Well, excluding medical interventions such as Cesarian sections and test-tube babies; safe to say, the vagina can touch/is touching/will touch some of humanity. As I write this, a new-born baby has been graced by passage through a vagina. See, nothing profane about your genitalia and in fact, a very beautiful and powerful organ. <br /><br />So please, stop thinking of your vaginas as profane and freely discuss it. <br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5371899326058645622.post-10494440706535485072012-12-14T23:51:00.000+08:002012-12-14T23:51:18.971+08:00A Physician's IntegrityThat adjective that we demand of all people yet so hard to achieve. This came from a lecture in Physiology by the Physiology Sensei; you'll see why if you see him in person. Anyway, he has this habit of inserting guest speakers into his lectures talking about principles that future physicians should have. However, the downside is he is a bit religious; so during those talks I feel like a minority. Oh don't get me wrong; I agree with his intentions: strike them while they're still in 1st year Medicine and that's partly what the intention of SLCM - WHQM to begin with. We're not just taught Medicine but also values. Let's just say I tune out when the speaker mentions a god but the rest of the substance of the talks; I agree. <br /><br />Anyway, what brought about this talk from Physiology Sensei is he was slightly disturbed when a very unethical practice was brought to his attention: the request of procedures that are not even needed so that PhilHealth has no choice but to reimburse the requesting physician. Did I scare you off from our Filipino physicians? Oh, this practice is not just limited in the Philippines; some physicians in the U.S. do the same principle. So yes, some physicians are a bit unethical that they value money over the patient.<br /><br />So I better react to his talk while endorphins are pumping through my body. Sure, its unethical but let's take a look at the journey a physician-wannabe takes. After an undergraduate course in a college, he/she enrolls in a medical school (in the Philippines, medical education is for 5 years). And then, residency training so that he/she becomes a specialist. That takes an additional 3-6 years. And if he/she wants to sub-specialize, that is to add another segment of knowledge to specialization just attained, then it takes another 3 years at the most. So let's add them all up: 5+3+3 = 11 years or 5+6+3 = 14 years. So take note, the average age of a medical student is 21; for the rest of his/her 20s are spent in books and studying. These are the prime years of a human's life. So if for some they have already earned their first million in their 20's; for us, we earn that in our 40's.<br /><br />I haven't mentioned the cost and the effort and the stress that it entails in getting that MD and other initials after one's surname. And here's somewhat of a downside; we are expected to provide cheap service. Our attorney-brethren, on the other hand, have very high legal fees. Not that I have any problem with the legal profession but there is something inherently wrong if a person who saves lives is valued less over a person who exists to give honeyed-words. Sure, I agree with the cheap service provision. We exist to serve human life.<br /><br />But I have to disagree if it is all the time. Excuse me, how much did we study, how much years of our lives did we give up and not to mention the stress? And in fact, I posited this question to 2 of my friends.<br /><br />Me: So are you willing to provide the best of your abilities if in exchange it's only a "salamat doc"?<br /><br />Them: Heck no!<br />
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Well to be fair, I asked them an extreme case. No physician in his/her sane mind would ever say yes to that. A "salamat doc" doesn't feed me, doesn't pay my rent and doesn't clothe me. So I posed this follow-up question:<br /><br />Me: So are you willing to provide pro-bono work for some cases?<br /><br />Them: Yes.<br />
<br />However, the downside is that it was based on the assumption they would be having a decent practice. That is one of the problems facing Philippine Healthcare: our physicians do not want to go to the provinces. Believe it or not, there are some people in this country who have not even seen a medical doctor. Our doctors are concentrated in the urban areas. Because face it; we have to eat, we might want to start a family and we have wants too.<br /><br />Look at UPCM. Almost all of their graduates are abroad; so, part of your money goes into funding physicians for other countries especially the USA. But, don't get mad just yet. Have you been to UP-PGH? Are you aware of the burden on those dear 160 students, how much they have to study and what is expected of them? So, if you ask me; I don't really blame them for going out of the country. Sure, they got a cheap medical education but the UPCM environment is a very stressful one. Their clerks and interns face a different level of hell in PGH compared to private hospitals (not that its easier in private hospitals; it's more of the equipment is lacking and the increased patient load).<br /><br />Oh you might think I'm going to be a money-grabbing physician; I assure you I won't be. It's just that I'm offering a pragmatic analysis. In fact, I'm a bit angry with then-Senator Noynoy's speech to the graduating class of UPCM (forgot which year, just go to pinoy.md and search for it there). It was the same "please, please serve our country!". No mention of health reforms, salary increases and manageable workload. So are we expected to just take it? Are we just going to easily sacrifice? So easy to say for those outside the medical field but for us in this field; it's a different proposition. Remember, our parents paid like a million pesos for our medical education; so are we just to sublimate our desires and their sacrifices? And not to mention, residency doesn't have a formal salary. Really, really being pragmatic over here.<br /><br />
To future medical doctors: yes, this is the dilemma you will have to face. If you want to walk away from your dream then better do it before your entry to a medical school rather than after graduation. If still you want to continue with our profession; you're like me, insane but committed and I commend you and I welcome you with open arms.<br /><br />I really don't have the answers but I hope that at least some people will value our Filipino physicians instead of looking at us as automatons of diagnosis. Remember, we are human beings like you. We eat, breathe and get tired also. Get out of that self-entitled mentality Filipinos seem to have!<br /><br />Reforms would be nice; getting paid the best salary eases our burden a bit because let's face it, we also need money. I'm not averse to providing free services but I have to limit it to "depends on the situation".Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14277540075580789702noreply@blogger.com0